Like have I told you how absolutely freeing it is to be a lesbian? I cannot describe the feeling of finally being honest with yourself after a long time of burying feelings. It is like this giant sense of relief. But there is also like the feeling of, "Wow, I am a lesbian. How awesome is this." Women are so beautiful. Women are so fun. It is just amazing to me how wonderous we as women are. I wasn't hesistant at all once I finally decided that I was going to be honest with myself. I jumped into this with all myself. I can't do things any other way. Looking back on myself and the way I was, I can't believe I was able to keep up that sort of "Oh well...if I can't be happy this might do" sort of attitude for as long as I did. It was out of some fear of rejection but my family has been so awesome that I should not have been afraid of the truth. Being out and being a lesbian is just who I am.
