All Of My Days Have Been Misspent
Did I ever tell you about Erin? Erin and I were best friends. Or at least I thought we were. We spent a lot of time together. We confided things in each other. We helped each other transition through difficult changes in both our lives. One day, Erin decided that she didn't want to be friends with me anymore.
I know I have told you about Ashley. Ashley and I were best friends. We worked together. We bonded more than I had bonded with any other friend I had before. We talked for hours about everything. One day, Ashley decided that she didn't want to be friends with me anymore.
A huge part of me is sick of this cycle. I am battered from it. I weather the storms and forge new friendships but I can't take much more of this. I wonder what is wrong with me. Why does this happen to me? I know that people will leave me comments that there is nothing wrong with me but I am thinking that is bullshit. All these people can't be that wrong. I mean really....am I too needy? Am I too much for people? I just can't figure it out.
It makes me not want to reach out to people anymore. Why take that step when I am the one that ends up getting hurt in the end? Why keep taking that chance? Obviously it isn't working out for me.
